Took two IC's today. Both were BFN.
It really upset me because I let myself get my hopes up. I was daydreaming about being about to tell my parents and James' Parents and It made me feel excited so when I tested and it was BFN I just felt myself crashing so hard.
I wanted so badly to be pregnant before James' Cousin was induced, but if AF comes tomorrow or friday when she is scheduled too, that will be impossible. I'll be bombarded with a MILLION pictures of "CJ" on facebook. I just can't handle it so I'm going to mass hide anyone in the family who would be talking about it or posting pictures of it.
THANK GOD it's not in the middle of a bunch of holidays, I have at LEAST until the 4th of JULY before I have to worry about seeing her, maybe even longer! Maybe even until September! (I HOPE!) Unless....she brings him over here....she probably will. (*CRIES*)
Anyway I feel slightly icky when I eat and my appetite has went way down, but I don't know if it's because I was worried about James' dad or anxious or what.
I have been lightly cramping off and on for two days. We'll see what happens. I'll probably be getting on here tomorrow or Friday to post that AF showed her ugly face. To think i said "I won't be upset" in my last blog lol.
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- Jennifer Lynn
- I'm 27 years old and my husband James and I have been trying to conceive our first child off and on for 4 years. We've just recently gotten REALLY genuinely serious about Trying to Conceive naturally without the help of any doctors or medications. Follow us as we go through this journey.
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Omg you are almost totally paralelling my life! These past few weeks I was TOTALLY convinced that I was pregnant. My period was (and still is!) late and I had severe cramps/nausea! I was picturing telling my close family, decorating the nursery, organising time off work, etc etc... After 2 HPTs come up BFN I was still sure I was pg, so I went to the docs for a blood test. Waiting for the results I still had my hopes up, but once I got the call that the results were negative... I crashed. It broke my heart.
It was the first time in nearly 10 years that I was SURE, not just HOPED I was pregnant. It was a hard thing to go through, but in a way it's made me even more determined that this year is going to be THE year.
Anyway, just had to comment again when I read this post (I must be going backwards because I read the other one first haha)
All the best,
Kristal :)
Oh forgot to mention I completely understand about the whole family having babies thing - right when I was going through this heartache of finding out I wasn't pregnant, my brother-in-law's wife gave birth to their first child... It was like a slap in the face :( Thankfully I'm not actually friends with them on facebook so I haven't really been bombarded with the photos. But they were kind enough to send a photo to my phone! Not that they know what I'm going through, but it still hurts haha
Ok, leaving you alone now ;)
Thank you so much for your comments!! :) You are not alone!
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