The Wait Is On

So I am 3 DPO today. I had a 3 day LH Surge on CD 17, 18 and 19. Fertility Friend has put CD 19 as the Day I O'd So that's what I'm going by. I'm really trying not to think about it. But Fertility Friend has also put my estimated day of AF to be the day before James' Birthday. I keep thinking, I don't want to be Sad, Disappointed and Crampy on his Birthday.

I want to give him a BFP on his birthday so very badly. But I can't let myself think about it, or else I'll start obsessing and then that feeling like If I don't get it I'll die will come back. I pray right now that GOD would help me through this.