Fight Inside

I am a huge fan of music. I have been since I was 3 years old and I discovered Buddy Holly. Today I like a lot of different genres of music anything from classical to rock. There is a band called RED and they have a song called "Fight Inside" I discovered this song while listening to a christian radio station online and I have to say it goes with what I feel SO very much.

Before I post the Lyrics I'll go through what they mean to me.

The devil can whisper lies to you, tell you it's not going to change as the lyrics says "We both know how this will end" In other words, he will tell me "you will never get pregnant again, you know this month will end like every other"

But I try again, every time, I march on doing my best to ignore him and knowing without GOD I would be broken I would lose out every time. When the song says "And without you" It says GOD to me. Without God, the fight inside would kill me.

The fight inside that goes along with this, you fight to hold on to faith, to ignore the negativity to hold on to hope.

You also fight inside to make a life, to hold on to that life and to nurture it and grow it into the child you want so very badly.

Satan also tells you that, all of this pain you go through ( or pursue ) trying to conceive, isn't worth it, It's not worth the light at the end of the tunnel, because you won't get to that light.

You tell yourself that it's nothing, it's okay if it's negative again this month but in your heart you know it's EVERYTHING to you.

Satan will always find you and he will always temp you the lyrics "And it finds me" that's what it says to me, He will always try to destroy you and break you and bring you down.

And Now for the lyrics and the Song! (my thoughts in red!)

Fight Inside By RED

Enemy (Satan), familiar friend (GOD)
My beginning (GOD)  and my end (Satan)
Knowing truth,(GOD) whispering lies (Satan)
And it hurts again

What I fear and what I try
The words I say and what I hide
All the pain, I want it to end
But I want it again (despite all the pain, and the fear we still want a baby more then anything)

And it finds me (Satan finds you his web if fear and lies)
The fight inside is coursing through my veins (The fight inside is both Satan and God, you fight to hold onto faith and Satan lies and tells you negative things, The fight inside is also the fight to conceive a child)
And it's raging
The fight inside is breaking me again (This fight can be exhausting...)

It's still the same, pursuing pain
Isn't worth the light I've gained
We both know how this will end (Satan will tell you the pain isn't worth the outcome and that you will not succeed)
But I do it again (despite these lies from Satan we still continue to try month after month, year after year)

And it finds me
The fight inside is coursing through my veins
And it's raging
The fight inside is hurting me again

And it finds me
The war within me pulls me under
And without you (without GOD)
The fight inside is breaking me again

It's nothing (GOD says It's okay if I'm not pregnant, I will conceive in his time)
(It's everything) (Satan Says, It's actually everything to me, I will die if this isn't the month)
It's nothing
(It's everything)

It's nothing
(It's everything)
It's nothing
It's everything

And it finds me
The fight inside is coursing through my veins
And it's raging
The fight inside is hurting me again

And it finds me
The war within me pulls me under
And without you
The fight inside is breaking me again

It's breaking me, it's breaking me
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart

LISTEN TO THE SONG IT'S AMAZING